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I spent the morning working on my memoirs. It seems so strange to be finally writing them down. I've planned to write them most of my life and yet, I think a part of me never thought I would be able to.
It's cool here, only 68, but muggy. The moisture seems to hang in the air, suspended in time, falling in such slow motion as to take all day to finally touch the ground. I like these days but I like most days so ...
Nik found the spider web above the holding pen yesterday morning. Huge and perfect, adorned with pearls of dew. It was there still this morning, like a welcome sign above the gate :)
We're just back in from milking and morning chores. Thistle is doing wonderfully and gets better at each milking. She's also giving a bit more milk now that's she's getting used to the schedule. 2 1/2 cups today, that's a little over a gallon a week. I still need about twice that for all the baking and stuff but it's a very good start and keeps us from having to buy milk. Still no eggs tho, they haven't even bothered the hay in the nests.
Early this morning I had a very rare occurrence. I had a nightmare, sort of.
I was dreaming something that i didn't like and wasn't able to turn it like I usually can, so i woke myself up to end the dream. As I was drifting back to sleep I had a feeling that someone else was there. I brushed it away and continued to fall asleep. Suddenly there was someone standing beside my bed wearing horrific reddish black armor. I don't know why it seemed so horrible but it did. The person started to reach toward me and I struggled with my myself to stop it and change the dream. But I couldn't so i woke myself up again. I was so tired and just wanted to fall back to sleep so I began to drift but everytime i would start to drift the person in the armor would reappear and reach for me. finally I had to wake myself and sit up in bed for a few minutes. It felt wrong and the feeling lingered long after I was up. Eventually I went back to bed and was afraid the being would return, but it didn't and I slept well until I woke naturally just before 5:00am.
For now I'm off to get some things done
Just as I was getting ready to post this a sheriff pulled into our drive. He was a very nice man here to deliver eviction papers. I guess we lose our home as well. My hands are shaking and I cannot think. The papers say that I was asked to move over a month ago but refused. But this is the first I've heard anything about it. I am suddenly very tired and lost.
11 comments:
Juli -
Oh sweet lady, I am so sorry to hear this. My hearts cries with yours and as your hands shake, I pray that the goddess will hold you close and calm your fears. I can offer nothing more than compassion and tears and I know it will not be enough. Reach out should you need anything at all.
sacheen (MOBrowncoat)
I'm so sorry, Juli. Perhaps the spirit in the reddish black armor was an omen of sorts (which I do believe in, btw). Perhaps there is a reason you are to leave your current residence -- you won't know until later what that reason is. Hang in there, something good will come of this, I'm sure. ((Hugs))
I am so sorry to hear about your eviction....during the time I've been reading your blog it has been very inspiring to me, since I am wanting to do what you are currently doing. I hope you and your family the best and that things will turn out in your favor (instead of the criminals who are running this country into the ground). Blessed be.
oh my goodness.
i don't comment often but i always read...lurkey lurkenstein...;) -- but this is so gutting.
i don't really know what to say....but i shall send you as much Light and strength as i can muster.
blessings, m.
Why re you being evicted lovey? You must be so stressed!
Hugs
Kimmie
x
Hugs to you. I wonder if the dream/person was trying to warn you that the papers were coming? Or maybe it was someone who wants to help you fight the eviction. I'm so sorry this is happening to you.
I am so sorry to hear this - can the landlord prove that they asked you to move out? That should be in writing, shouldn't it? Do you have any prospects for a new place? Please know that someone you don't know is thinking about you today and hoping things work out for you.
I am so sorry Juli. I will be sending you thoughts of strength and resourcefullness.
Beth aka oneoldgoat
Oh! I am soo sorry!
Oh no. This is very bad news. I'm so sorry, Gypsy. I know how much you love your home.
Juli you are in my heart, thought and prayers. My heart is so hurting for all you have been and are going through. There is always a place for you here. We can build you a little cabin and you can have your own garden, herb garden, animal pens, etc. without having to share with us. We also plan on selling this place in a year and move back to the mountains so it could be all yours then. (will get it on paper!)
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