Breathe, just breathe

Yesterday afternoon I emailed the guy with the 3 room cabin to ask what he knew about a water cistern and to tell him I was going to go ahead and make the down payment without looking at the place so we wouldn't lose it. I've talked to him almost daily, he knows are complete situation. Yesterday he replied saying the place was gone, a woman traded her place for it a few days ago.

It felt like having the breath knocked out of me. Again.

I guess I'm getting used to it tho because I gasped for air and caught my breath more quickly this time. Someone asked me recently how I could go on fighting when she thought most people would curl up and give in. The answer is .... I don't know. I just don't seem to have the ability to give up. Maybe it's a Gee, maybe a blessing, I suspect a bit of both.
I also want to say that for every person who has ever done wrong to me, there has always been at least one person who has behaved honorably and kindly. Sometimes I think I have known the worst and best that humans are capable of.

So, here I am searching for another place. I don't know what will happen but I do know that we will be ok.

Thank you so much to everyone who has offered to let us stay on their land!! I truly appreciate it and I hope I will never need to it :)

I've gotten most of the plants cut back for moving. I hope they make it safely and in time. The house is wall to wall boxes now and we just have paths to go where we need. But things are getting done ad will be easier because of it when the time does come.

To add to all the weirdness ... yesterday someone sent me a diabetes packet in the mail. It said that I had requested it but I am sure someone else did on my behalf. When Nik brought the mail in it was 12:12. then, yesterday afternoon I was going through things to pack and found a diabetes blood sugar testing system that I had gotten to send to my mother but never had a chance to. My mothers death was attributed to congestive heart failure/ type 2 diabetes.

Life is ... Interesting.



Anyway, I just emailed about an unfinished 2 story cabin on 3.5 acres with private owner finance at a very good price and monthly payments I can afford. Maybe. if it's the right place, the down payment will also be in my price range. We'll see.

I'm still waiting on my cabin to sell, I keep lowering the price so maybe soon it will be low enough for someone to be able to buy it and still give enough to get us moved safely. If the cabin does sell and we get down on time I will just buy a travel trailer and sell the farm animals and everything that doesn't fit. I'm making prayers not to have to get there at all but if it comes to that at least the family (Nik, me and 4 leggeds) will be safe until I can find something else.